I thought it was a good idea all along?!

Every new idea goes through 3 phases: 'It will not work.'  'It will cost too much.'  'I thought it was a good idea all along.'

I think this is very true, however, not always in that order, and certainly some ideas go through the 3 phases several hundred times.  This weekend got me thinking very hard about Africa, in particular Uganda.  It was no accident the lead speaker at the conference I went to was speaking about her charity in Uganda and the Esther story - 'For such a time as this.'  God was saying - this is for you too, in a different way, but this is the same outcome.

God reconfirmed again His vision for my future - Go to Africa, build a hospital, help my people in their need.

Last year when I was in Malawi, looking back, I think I finally got to: 'I thought it was a good idea all along.'  Since then though, I have been in the combined thoughts of: 'It will cost too much,' and 'It will not work.'  Not in cost terms of money, but in terms of my life.  I do want to do this, but I want other things too, and right now I'm not quite sure how they would ever all fit together.

The phrase 'Trust in the Lord, and lean not on your own understanding.'  has been God's watchword for me over the last couple of years, now He's added to it: 'Do NOT be afraid.'

Psalm 20:1-6
God answer you on the day you crash,
The name God-of-Jacob put you out of harms reach,
send reinforcements from Holy Hill,
dispatch from Zion fresh supplies,
exclaim over you offerings, celebrate your sacrifices,
give you what your heart desires, accomplish your plans.
When you win, we plan to raise the roof and lead the parade with our banners.
May all your wishes come true!
That clinches it - help is coming, an answer's on the way,
everything is going to work out.


Psalm 119:93
What you say goes, God, and stays, as permanent as the heavens.
Your truth never goes out of fashion; it's as up-to-date as the earth when the sun comes up.
Your Word and truth are dependable as ever; that's what you ordered—you set the earth going.
If your revelation hadn't delighted me so, I would have given up when the hard times came.
But I'll never forget the advice you gave me; you saved my life with those wise words.
Save me! I'm all yours. I look high and low for your words of wisdom.
The wicked lie in ambush to destroy me, but I'm only concerned with your plans for me.
I see the limits to everything human, but the horizons can't contain your commands!